I am counting the days until Thanksgiving and Christmas and trying to figure out how I am going to pay my bills and have anything leftover for gift giving and holiday cooking let alone being thankful for what I have.
I am trying my best not to give in to the sorrow and sadness that keeps trying to creep into my spirit. Every time a commercial comes on there are car ads, or department store ads telling me how I can get that special person a special gift at a special price and I get a knot in my stomach knowing I need a new car but can’t afford one, and would love to get the special people in my life that special gift but don’t have the money to do it.
I know that even though our family is going through a very rough time, there are others with less than we have. I know that even though I am behind in some of my bills, there are those that have lost their homes, cars and more. While I keep my thermostat set low to save on my gas bill, there are those with no heat or home. I know that while I have to cut back on buying extra special treats for the holidays, there are those with nothing to eat today. I know that it’s not the number of gifts you give or how much you spend, but the thought behind what you give.
It took writing out my thoughts to remember I have so very much to be thankful for. While it’s not great I have my health, while it needs repair I have a home, while it’s not gourmet I have food, while I could be a bit toastier I have warmth, while it’s not designer or in style I have clothing, while it needs a lot of repair I have a car, and while we’re not the Waltons I have family and friends who love and care for me and I wouldn’t change for anything.
I pray that His peace that surpasses all understanding is yours. God bless.