Hello prayer warriors. I am reaching out to you as I truly need to be lifted up in prayer. So many things have happened this year that I feel defeated, weighed down and heavy burdened. I’m losing my job, finances are stretched thinner than onion paper, my husband is dealing with constant chronic pain, I’ve lost loved ones, the holidays are coming and I have lost my joy! I think the last part is probably the most devastating thing on my list.
I know Who I serve. I know the power of my God. I know He watches over me. I know He is in control. I know that without Him I would not be here today. I know there are those who are much worse off than I am and many of them do not know Jesus which in my opinion makes them doubly worse off. (is doubly even a word??) What I don’t know is what happened to my joy.
I feel as though I have grieved the Holy Spirit and because of this, the Holy Spirit has departed from me. I know it is through my own actions that this has happened. I just need to find my way back. I am going through the motions of life right now and it is eating away at my spirit.
Please pray for me. I am clinging to my faith and know that there is a very real reason for what I am going through, and I know that it is something I will get through.
I read the prayer requests of those who come to my blog, many of whom are facing such difficult circumstances. I feel their pain as I read and pray and I know what they are going through. They face insurmountable odds, devastating life issues and have such need which in a way makes me feel a little silly for posting my prayer for the return of joy, but the need for prayer is the need for prayer no matter the reason – right?
I keep hearing this song in my head – it’s something the Lord gave to me several years ago and I know He has brought it back to my remembrance for a reason – ”the Lord is my strength, He carries my burdens, the Lord is my strength. Without Him I’m nothing, but with Him I’m strong, so I’ll turn to the One Who’s loved me all my life long.” (there’s more, but you get the gist of it)
As I finish this post, I am beginning to feel a bit lighter in my spirit. Thank you for all your prayers and support. May God richly bless you and keep you in His care. May He make His face to shine upon you and may His peace and grace be with you. ^i^