Archive | June 2007

Prayer for Marisa

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I would like to ask everyone to please visit the following blogsite: www.marisavanderveen.wordpress.com and join me in prayer for Marisa and her family. We all know that Jesus is the Ultimate Healer and that He bore all our sickness on the cross and that His word carries Power and Healing. Charles Capps wrote a very powerful booklet entitled God’s Creative Power for Healing and I have taken a few prayers from his book. Please lift up Marisa and her family daily. Let us pray; Jesus, you bore the curse for Marisa on the cross therefore we forbid the growth of tumors to inhabit her body. The life of God within her dissolves growths, tumors and her strength is restored. (Matt. 16:19, John 14:13, Mark 11:23) Every organ and tissue of Marisa’s body functions in the perfection that God created it to function. We forbid any malfunction in her body in the mighty name of Jesus. (Gen. 1:28-31) Thank you Father that you have given Marisa a strong heart that beats with the rhythm of life. Her blood flows to every cell of her body restoring life and health abundantly. (Prov 12:12, 14:30) Every cell that does not promote life and health in Marisa’s body is cut off from its life source. Her immune system will not allow tumorous growth to live in her body in Jesus’ name. (Luke 17:6, Mark 11:23) The law of the Spirit of Life in Christ Jesus had made Marisa free from the law of sin and death; therefore we command that sin, sickness nor death will be allowed to lord it over her. (Rom. 8:2, 6:13,14) Lord, Marisa and her family are facing a very difficult trial and they strength, courage, and faith to see this through. We ask that you send your angels to watch over Marisa and her family and to cover them with Your peace. Father we speak these things with the authority given to us through your Son Jesus Christ, Amen.

My Journey Toward A New Life

Okay, I promised to post pictures and believe me I can only do this because of Jesus Christ who strengthens me. My intent is to post a new picture and my weight at least once a month in the same outfit each time.  (i didn’t wear the black outfit pre-op because frankly the top was too tight and I didn’t feel like fussing around with clothes at that time. )  I am also going to have an actual page for my pictures so that you can just browse the page rather than have to look at each individual posting.  Well, here goes – – be gentle!

These pictures were taken June 20th the day before my surgery.  I was about 350lbs here. 

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Now this next set of pictures were taken on June 28h, 1 week post op and I honestly do not know how much I weighed here because my bathroom scale does not go above 330lbs.  I will say that everyone said my face was thinner and I had definitely lost some weight.  I really couldn’t tell at first but one day I noticed it was getting easier to reach certain areas than before.  I will say that I weighed myself in the hospital and was down to 349lbs at one point, but when they had to put me back on the IV, I started to put water weight on.  Oh yeah, my husband says, pay no attention to messy room! Oops, my bad!

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So, I know it doesn’t look like much now, but as time goes by it will be really cool to watch the transition. I decided to post the pictures in my About Me page.

My Journey Toward A New Life

Let everything that has breath praise the Lord!!!  Just a quick post to tell you that today, for the first time in about 7 months I was able to comfortably fit into a pair of my old jeans.  Now mind you, they are a size 28, but I haven’t even been able to get them past my mid thigh and today I got them all the way on and I could sit and bend and everything and there was no pressure on my tummy.  Hallelujah, praise HIM!!!  I am so happy I cannot even begin to express it.  I was also able to eat some instant mashed potatoes tonight for dinner and guess what, no pain digesting, no gassy bloated belly – it’s true when they say, what a difference a day makes!  I’ll post some more later, take care, God bless and may you be filled with the joy only the Lord can bring.

A New Look

I thought I’d try a new look and call  line for the site.  What do you think – like it – hate it – have any suggestions for the site or a topic you’d like to see something on?   Please take a moment to post your thoughts in the comments section. I look forward to  hearing from you.  Have a wonderfully blessed day and may God place His angels as a hedge around you and your family.  God Bless.

My Journey Toward A New Life

Sorry I missed my Friday posting.  I had an awful headache and did not get any sleep Thursday night so I spent Friday catching up on my sleep.  I do have Tylenol with Codeine for pain, but I got sick from it in the hospital so I try to avoid it at all costs.  By 5am Friday morning I was desparate so made an ice bag for my head and took a tablespoon of the codeine – yucko – and yes I gagged it down which put me into a coughing spell for about an hour.  I sucked on a few sugar free life savors (they are sooo good and have really been helpful when I feel like I need to put something in my mouth) and about an hour later I drifted off to sleep.  I spent  most of the morning waking and dozing and later in the afternoon I felt better so I decided to call a few friends and do some catching up, and then I did a few sudoku puzzles when I nodded off again.  I didn’t wake up again till around 830pm when my husband woke me up to eat something and now here it is 130am and I am awake while everyone else is sleeping.  I really need to get into a better sleep routine!  I want to let you know that while I do not regret having this surgery, I am having difficulty adjusting.  I find myself thinking about when I will be able to eat “real food” and I am getting really tired of jello and broth.  In fact, the mere thought of having broth as a “meal” gets me upset sometimes and even makes me feel nauseaus.  This is the single most diffuclt thing I have ever had to go through and unfortuneatly my family doesn’t really understand what it’s like, how could they?  I try to stay in my room when they eat or watch tv shows because most of the time they are about food/cooking and then I find myself focusing on food which is not good.  I spend a lot of time wondering when I will be able to really “eat” something without fear of throwing up, or trouble digesting it, or getting horrible gas pains and bloating.  Right now, every time I try to add something new, I get sick and have the most awful pain in my chest and stomach.  To describe the feeling, it’s like accidentally swallowing something whole and then feeling it move down then into your stomach.  No amount of expanding your chest or rubbing your tummy will take away the pain or make the process any faster and you can’t drink anything.  Usually the situation ends up with my belly getting very bloated and then throwing up.  I am really looking forward to speaking with my doctor and nutrionist on Monday so they can help me during this transitional phase.  I know the ONLY way I am going to get through this is my faith, prayer and my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.  I also know that it  has only been a little over a week and I did not get this way overnight and neither will I overcome it overnight.  I have to keep remembering not to beat myself up over it and to focus on Jesus and His healing power.  Lenore once told me that she had to keep busy and I totally agree, the busier I am, the less I think about my sitation – thank you Lenore and God Bless you for keeping it real.  If anyone has any questions, please please please ask me.  It is my hope that not only will I find healing by putting my journey into words, but that others will also learn from my experience.  I thank God for all of you and your prayers, may God Bless you according to His wealth and riches and pour out His healing upon you.  Take care, God bless.

My Journey Toward A New Life

Wow, today marks 1 week post surgery – and what a difference a week has made in my life.  Okay, I know that I am a bit behind in updating my journey and I will do my best to get caught up but today is probably the first day that I have actually felt up to doing anything aside from sleep or lie down.  I had no complications or problems during my surgery and my doctor said that it went great but since then I have had a few setbacks which I’ll talk about on future posts.  I am so happy to report that for the first time in a very long time I was able to walk for more than 5 minutes without being bent over in pain.  My son, Justin, took me to one of my favorite stores, Bed Bath and Beyond today.  I walked the entire store, up and down the aisles and not once did I have cramping in my back or pain in my knees.  I did walk a bit slow and at one point I did start to overheat and get sweaty but I made it and I truly enjoyed myself.  I broke down in tears a few times, happy to be getting my independance back and sad for all the time I have spent confined to my house.  I will say that I am catching up on lost sleep, I can almost sleep on my tummy and I no longer have the pain associated with the anesthesia.  I am still a bit tender in a few areas, I get gas build-up after I eat or drink so I burp often and I need to be near a potty within 10-15 minutes after “meals” (if you call jello or broth a meal).  I still crave my old favorites like burgers, steak, grilled cheese, spagetthi and stuff like that but oddly enough I don’t miss the sugary stuff like I thought I would and believe me, I loved my sweets!!!  I look forward to adding other things to my diet and can’t wait till I can  have something that actually requires me to CHEW!!!  I’m now into the second half of my Phase II diet which means I can add cottage cheese and cream soups – yippee!!  I drink Pink Lemonade Crystal Light and a lot of Smart Water, I love it because of the added electrolytes which helps when you have, pardon the expression, montezuma’s revenge!  I have one or two popsicles and servings of jello and pudding every day.  I also like instant mashed potatoes but they have to be very thin.  I had 2 saltine crackers and kept them down no problem but the second time I had them I also had a sip of water  – – – big no no!!  I forgot to wait 15 minutes and when the water hit the chewed up crackers, it made a ball of dough and the most excruciating pain I have ever had in my life.  Worse than labor, believe me, it also lasted almost 6 hours, so suffice to say I will NEVER make that mistake again.  Well, I’m gonna go for now, I’m just a tad bit sleepy.  I have my first follow-up visit on Monday so I will post my updated stats and pictures then.  Take care, God Bless.

Don’t Let Anyone Steal Your Joy

I’ve been trying to catch up on my email and I came across this message from Joel Osteen and knew I had to share it because the enemy will try anything and use anyone to take away your joy and get your focus where it should not be. God bless and have a great day!

A message from Joel Osteen

Keep the Joy

Today’s Scripture

“I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy” John 16:22 (NIV).

Today’s Word from Joel and Victoria

Your life is probably so fast paced that it seems to be swirling around you at times. In the midst of a hectic schedule, there are plenty of opportunities to lose your joy. But you don’t have to let any circumstance rob you of the joy that is rightfully yours in Christ. Once you decide to follow God and listen to Him, alone, nothing can take away that joy that is within you. And when your heart is set on joy, no one can wrestle it away from you unless you allow it. Your enemy is roaming around like a lion – waiting to devour, destroy and rob you of joy (1 Peter 5:8). But he can’t steal what Jesus has given to you in the first place. Today’s verse is a promise from Jesus, Himself – so hold on to the joy that He has put in your heart!

A Prayer for Today

God, thank You for giving me unspeakable joy in my life. Help me today to hold on to what You have given me and not allow anyone or anything to take it away. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.