Archive | Friday,July 13, 2007

My Journey Toward A New Life

Wow, I cannot believe it has been 3 days since my last post to my blog.  I want everyone to know that my being away has not been due to my being ill or tired.  On the contrary, I have been busy running here and there and I have been able to do it on my own.  PRAISE GOD AND HIS HOLY GRACE AND MERCY THAT SUSTAINS AND STRENGTHENS ME.  I drove my car (by myself) on Tuesday and I haven’t stopped since.  Since Tuesday, I’ve been to the Goodwill, Paperback Trader, Joanne Fabrics (all in woodbury mind you) visited a few friends and ran some errands.  Yesterday I drove to Burlington and spent the day with Louise and Albert and I was so tremendously blessed by being with them.  I truly cannot put into words how much they mean to me. 

Again, I say to you that there are no accidents or mistakes when it comes to God and His plan.  He has a purpose for each of us and it is our responsibility to stay close to Him and listen for Him when He calls.

So, more on my progress – like I said, I am getting out and I have so much energy that sometimes my body has trouble keeping up.  My knees, calfs and feet are sore (of course they are, they forgot what moving feels like) and I have a little stiffness in my back.  Believe it or not, I don’t mind, I think of it as healing hurt.  You know, when something hurts but it hurts soooo good.  I stopped tossing my food a few days ago, but then had an episode last night.  I made my “loaded faked potato” (faked versus baked – it’s mashed potatoes, cheese and sour cream and it tastes just like a baked potato) but this time instead of using shredded fat free cheddar cheese I used cheese-whiz.  Now I can’t be sure it was the cheese-whiz because it may have been the sour cream.  I know that during my episode it felt as though the sour cream may not have been fresh any longer. 

Now with that said, I indulged in a craving and bought myself a small bag of Funyons.  I prayed and asked God to PLEASE let them stay down and not give me any problems.  I took my time, ate in small bites and stayed away from my water and guess what…..they didn’t give my ANY problems.  Don’t tell me God doesn’t answer prayer.  I was in heaven man, and I was happy, happy, happy.  Today, I had cream of potato soup with some shredded fat free cheddar.  My son made it for me and he used my stick blender to really get it creamy and that too stayed down. 

I’m now able to take a little bigger sip of beverage and I have created a perfect glass of lemonade that I can tolerate.  I’ve even taken it a step further and made my own lemon ice – soooooo good.  I now face the daily challenge of cravings and giving in to the urges.  One part of me says GO FOR IT, while the other says, UH DO YOU REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED THE LAST TIME, AND THE TIME BEFORE THAT AND THE TIME BEFORE THAT???  I thank God for each of you that continue to lift me up in prayer and for those that I have met through the message boards.  I know the power of prayer, and I also know the importance of being in fellowship with those who have already walked the path I am on.

One of my next goals is to relocate my home business office.  It was in a spare bedroom and now that my son Justin is home (i can’t tell you how happy i am to have him here with us – blessed doesn’t even come close to describing it) it’s time to move it.  I have to get the administrative end in order because it’s been a few months and paperwork piles up faster than rabbits multiply.  We are also growing the business so being organized is crucial to our success.

Well, I’m going to stop for now, take care, God bless and may your life be filled with joy, peace, happiness and purpose.

 ^i^ briggie